Through my emotional and physical exhaustion, I will attempt to get back on the horse with this blog.
I thought one angle was to tackle what I found hard to hear in the question time on Saturday, what is chasing round and round. What has sent me back to the terror that was prostitution.
I know it was a sound audience, and that idiots were kept away. I know that as a panel we dealt with skill with dodgy questions.
I know damned well that I was powerful in the question time.
But, all that does not mean I have not been sent back into hell. I could say I have been triggered, only it was my choice to be there.
The thing that quite fucked me up was the word “normalisation” used to describe prostitution.
That word is a deep insult to the vast majority of prostituted women and girls.
What the hell is normal about raped so often that you lose all feelings, that you cannot even name as abuse.
What is normal about men thinking they have the right to have a living porn-toy.
What is normal that pimps/managers sell women and girls without any regard to their physical and mental welfare – without giving a damned if their goods are murdered.
What is bloody normal about that the women that often have a lifetime of extreme trauma.
If you decide that is normal, then I suggest that you get some therapy.
But, if must seen as normal, coz we can’t possibly criticise the buying and selling of women and girls, couldn’t possibly say that is a form of slavery, that is involves torture, brainwashing, and slow destruction of everything that makes her a full human.
That would be outrageous, and upset the poor johns, pimps, managers and their hordes of supporters.
Then we come to questions about why johns do what they do.
Isn’t it clear, they do to have complete and utter control over a woman or girl, and because no-one is punishing them. They do whatever they want, with no regard to her safety, to that she has a life outside of him, that she may in terror, that she get a disease or pregnant off his few moments of taking power.
It is not complicated, it is made complicated because so many choose to believe the myths and excuses that men invent to make their hate and violence invisible.
No man has the right to have sex on demand, especially when he is paying for a whole class of women and girls to be destroy for his glorious orgasm.
Even only one prostitute is tortured just that “sexual relief”, that is one too many. But in reality, it is millions on millions on millions of prostituted women and girls that are tortured every second of the every day in every country in the world.
Don’t care why men do that, we do not have that luxury.
Whilst others debate, and have meetings about meetings, prostituted women and girls are being raped on an industrial scale, are being sexually, mentally and physically torture, are being gang-raped, are closed off from the real world, are making hard-core porn, are having their childhoods stolen.
There is no time to understand the bastards that think they have the right to have sexual slaves.
The bottom line they are criminals, forget about pitying them.
If you have to feel pity, give to the women and girls who are being prostituted this second.
But really, damn your pity, they need to make real changes so they can be free.
Pity should never used for inaction.
I cannot write any more, for the tp of my head is exploring.
I may take time to know how to write.