A Silent Prayer

My mind and body are unable to be. So this prayer may help. It is written from the empty scream in me.

So I have no idea how it would turn out.

PRAYER TO UNMAKE WHAT I WAS MADE

I cannot scream

Any more

It was crushed

Smothered

Made into atoms

But silently

My scream

Is landed

Into

My guts

Keeping me

Alive

Despite

Death being

So welcoming

I cannot

Have space

Without it

Being empty

Full of

Fear

Self-hate

A rage

I cannot

Know

Space lasts

So short

As

Men fill

Me in

All space

In me

Is fucked away

Is beaten away

As

Eyes

Watch

Only

Somewhere

Somehow

I get

Space

That hugs me

That holds me

That knows me

Make me

Safe

Into silence

I was

Praying

Not knowing

Why

Not believing

I prayed

I believed

There could be

Life beyond

This death

I prayed

That I

Knew

There was

More than

This shit

I knew

I would get

Away

I prayed

For some

Route out

God

I prayed

When my

Body asked

For end to

Pain

End to

Hate

End to

Forgetting

I was

Human

God

I prayed

Not knowing

It would

Work

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