I have to write because I am in the middle of a breaking down.
I need to say some of the stuff that supporters of the sex trade feel they have the right to say or write to me. I usually delete or try to ignore that callous language , but it burns at my soul.
I am continually told to kill myself, or that the fact I have not kill myself means that it was not as bad as I claim.
I am often told I am lying about indoors prostitution – for there is no significant violence in indoors prostitution, that the women the are in that system are respected and empowered.
If it is true that there was violence, I am told it was because it was several years ago, that it must be a very dodgy place/s I was in, that I must have encouraged/enjoy the violence and degradation, I should have reported it or walked out.
Some women who owned brothels try to show how safe their place, if I had worked for them I would be fine and dandy.
They have attack me relentlessly since that found I was vulnerable because of grief for my Dad’s death about two and half years ago.
But then prostitutes are not allow normal emotions like grief, for they just robots.
They send me hard-core porn.
I also can’t sleep, have menopause and keep crying.
Supporters of the sex trade, especially those who are embedded in the sex trade – want exited women who speak not just to shut, but to wipe us off this earth.
Prostitutes are not meant to survive, and if they are lucky enough to exit, they are not meant to remember the reality of their hell.
By not just exiting and somehow building another life, but also being brave and strong to speak out, those exited women can expose the sex trade right down to its roots.
We are hated – we are told to kill ourselves, that our words will never heard for we are just mental, that all our knowledge of torture will never be believed.
The sex trade hates us for being a traitor and being too stubborn to die.
Please do more to destroy the sex trade – for these just a few examples of their callousness.
Exited women cannot do it by themselves.