Where I Am At

I suppose I may be having a breakdown. I don’t know – but it all I can label it.

I am exhausted and cannot stop crying.

Is that a breakdown?

I have just seen the nurse, and they think my thyroid mediation may be pushing me over the edge. Or it may just my life?

I have very sick last night, which has got rid of some of the horrific body memories – but still feel sick and have a headache.

Is that a breakdown?

What I want to know is after surviving 21 of extreme mental, physical and sexual violence/torture – how am I meant to stay mentally stable?

What I want to know is how to know the hate that is embedded in all aspects of prostitution without having a breakdown?

What I want to know is how to survive the trauma, the body memories, and the underlying fear without mentally collapsing?

Having a mental breakdown is a normal reaction to the hell I have known.

So why does it feel like a weakness – or coz I am failure?

 

 

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