Speaking into a Revolution

I want to write to why and how I use my writing as a revolutionary tool.

The revolution that is the abolition of all the sex trade is slow – but formed from centuries of anger, pain and growing sense of hope from the prostituted class.

Our revolution is made from the silences as the punters and sex trade profiteers crash our multiple voices.

 Our revolution is in every cell of the prostituted that has known torture, constant and living with threat of early violent death.

It is a revolution with a gag or penis forced down our throats – but still we have the courage to protest.

I have been a reader of mainly fiction since I was seven, here I will try and say the many styles and authors that have been my building blocks for my participation in this revolution.

I try to write to the silences and gaps that is the heart of the prostituted Self. I write simple words that hold this silence, and show the unspeakable to my readers.

I find fiction in its multiple ways of writing is my guide to find words that explain the centuries of the silenced prostituted class, often facts is too rigid to know the pain, grief and confusion that makes that silence.

Also, the vast of “facts” and statistics that frame what it is to be prostituted are formed for the benefit of punters and sex trade profiteers. It only in very recent history, that the multiple voices of the abolitionist movement has given a public hearing.

So, I choose to reach to fiction to speak the truths of prostitution,

I begun as a public writer by doing performance poetry, where I taught myself to use simple language, to make each word prove it deserve to be said.

I learnt to write simple words to make complicated and nuanced way of seeing and understanding.

In this simple language, I reach into deep grief, reach out to hold all the confusions of not dying from being prostitution, and reach for some idea of having a solid future.

I have read and listen to other poets all my life, so many poets are be hide my desire to find words for this revolution -I will say just a few.

George Herbert, e e Cummings, Stevie Smith, Emily Dickenson, Gerald Manley Hopkins, Edgar Allen Poe.

I choose to write poetical prose or what I named as witness writing.

I have influenced by slave testimonies, by the writings of Primo Levi, by the records of voices of hidden city dwellers, by the found writings from the many wars and genocides in my lifetime and over the centuries.

I reach into the pain and search for words for the unspeakable by reading letters, diaries, poems and novels try to explain the man-made horrors that the oppressed have to endured.

I teach myself to find words for trauma in the words the battled scarred, in the found words from the too many genocides, in the testimonies of tortured.

Most of records left are from anonymous, but a few of named survivors who help find ways to integrate trauma into words for the revolution.

Anne Frank, Primo Levi, Sigmund Sasson, H H Munroe.

I have always been a Shakespeare lover, and used his words to accept that human nature is complexed and can be easily damaged by hate and violence.

I look to King Lear to know the depths of trauma and deep grief, I watch his comedies for some sense of hope and human ability to raise upon the pain of life, I love Measure for Measure for allowing opposite views equal voice forcing the audience to think, I adore MacBeth for its cold view of the oppressor.

Shakespeare is in my words, not as a copy but as a shadow showing me to question anything that appears too simplistic.

A major influence on my work are myths, fairy tales and ghost stories.

These genres speak to the gaps and silences of being damaged by oppression, often discovering ways for the oppressed to regain power and some on control.

I read Greek myths as a child, and it give a sense of being nothing but a toy that bored gods and goddesses played with, then destroyed.

This give me some framing to the hell of prostitution, but it was a universe where all hope was not a light at the end of a tunnel, but an oncoming train.

Fairy tales made me have some child-like idea that I could fight back, that evil could be destroyed. I killed punters with water, by creating spells or with the help of forest animals as my fantasy.

Ghosts stories give me a way to speak to the silence and gaps, speak to what is horror at its core, speaks to unseen terror in the corner of my eye.

I used ghost stories to speak to dead Self that was my prostituted Self, speak to what it is to be made sub-human – what it is to be a ghost in your own life.

I hope this post give you some ideas of why and how I write.

Do ask me questions if you like.

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3 responses to “Speaking into a Revolution

  1. The only question I have is this: How can we encourage more women to do this?

    Fiction is the best way I can think of to convey what has happened to us and to re-write a better possible future. Right now, it’s hard for women to think of how life might be in a free world – what would we be like, if not for all the sexual grooming from the moment of birth – but we have that opportunity with fiction.

    I love horror fiction and horror movies because they best tell the story of how the world really is, of how males really are, and how they regard us and how the abuse us. For instance, the vampire is the ultimate parasitic male, sucking the life out of women and little girls – There is Varney the Vampire, who stalked and terrorized women in every imaginable scenario. Then there is Barnabas Collins, who seemed so redeemable, although he blamed an evil blonde witch for all his misery, never seeing his own role in it. He convinced the women around him he could be redeemed, that he could become human. He sucked the life force out of women and girls, sometimes just enough to enslave them, but he only killed males, often by strangling. I think that character is highly illustrative of the hetero-male parasite.

    I’d love to see more women writing fiction, seeing the value of fiction, and envisioning a world where we are free, where males are not so great in number, where crime is low, and it is women who are the judges and juries when males commit crimes against us.

    Excellent post, as always, RM.

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  2. I tend to not be that interested in fiction as future gazing, more as a study of human nature good or bad, or more common a mixture of both. I tend not to be a great believer in Utopia.

    We can get others to help, by our constant speaking to the conditions of what it is to be prostituted, by keeping the focus on the male violence that is the cause of prostitution.
    This can involve speaking with friends, speaking out at public events, writing, using the arts to express ourselves, and whatever means spread our message.

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  3. The wonderful thing about fiction is that women can use it anyway we like. I don’t know about “utopia,” – I wasn’t really thinking about that, myself – but I really believe it would be beneficial for women to imagine a world that is better for us.

    Writing is a way of help us work things out – we can use it to work through trauma and to envision a better future for ourselves.

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